The Hag is taking over

Over the past few weeks I have come to the realization that I am turning into a bitter, hateful, judgmental, overly opinionated hag!!!!  And the bad part is I could care less. The wicked witch is taking over and I am embracing her with love and contentment.  Why?  I am not fully certain, I think much of it is that I am so disgusted with the way so many people my age choose to live their lives.  Well not only people my age but just people in general who choose to create a bubble of oblivion around them.  Why are so many people so dang naive?  I am completely amazed each and every day, mainly at my place of employment, how small minded people can truly be.  The more I am around this behavior the more my heart hags out. How can you expect culture, diversity, enrichment to flood into your life if you embed yourself in the same areas for school and work?  Then again how do I know that these people want that in their life?  Just because I do doesn't hold true for others.  I can't imagine being in a box, I was not raised that way and I have not lived my life that way.  I am always rambunctious, on the move, trying new things, new places, new people.  Granted I am still in the same city I grew up in, I have lifted my roots several times, I just realized there really is no place like home.  I love my family to much to be away from them.  But I feel I have and continue to grow and learn, if we stop growing and learning we cease to exist in my opinion.  And since this is my blog I will blast it all out!! 

That being said brings me to another topic... politics.... I can hear the screams! I am not a political buff whatsoever.  I rarely get into discussions because I am not that schooled in the matter, I read articles about current events, but don't delve much further than that.  It is confusing and gets me all worked up.  I do enjoy broadening my scope of the subject though, it is nice to know what is going on and where I choose to post my flag.  This whole mosque building event has everyone in a complete state of uproar.  I have to say I am opposed to it.  Not because I don't think that the Muslim community should be chastised for the events that occurred but simply because they could build it somewhere else. Somewhere that doesn't sting the hearts of the entire state of New York, specifically the residents of New york city who were forced to watch the horror unfold on their streets.  As Americans we all felt the grief of 9/11 but sitting on our couches watching from the comfort of our homes, while those people were standing in the dust of the building, digging people dead and alive from the rubble, attempting to pick up the pieces.  If the Muslim community wanted to rebuild their name and reconnect I just don't think this is the way. 


I feel like I am turning into my mother more and more and it scares the crap out of me.

Also, thank God for spell check.. this would have been a hot mess without it!!!

So you want to be a single mom?

In light of recent trash magazine articles talking about Jennifer Aniston wanting to pursue motherhood alone I got to thinking how absolutely crazy she is.  Bill O'Reily publicly attacked her for her wishes and she bit  back stating something to the effect that women no longer have to wait for a man to have a child, science has provided us with ways to reproduce and this is what she is choosing.  Two words for this deranged woman...GOOD LUCK!  Parenting is not meant to be a one sided ordeal and it is not meant to be weathered alone.  As the world should have many have and are doing it this way but it is a constant uphill battle and as a single mother myself one that I feel I am constantly slidding down rather than progressing upward.  Don't get me wrong, I love my daughter, I am accepting my role and trying to do the best I can alone.  The saying "it takes a village to raise a child" is more true than I could have ever realized.  I am alone in a sense I do not have a significant other in the picture to enjoy this experience, to nuture Hannah, to watch her grow, to laugh with me, to cry with me, to scream with me.  But I am by no means making it by myself, my family has sacrificed their time and money and sanity to help me raise this little girl. 

I guess my point to all of this is I personally from experience think it is crazy to just decide to have a kid by yourself. It is supposed to be a team effort and joint decision, granted there are situations where it happens without planning and the persons involved then make a decision to go it alone, but to intentionally stand up and say I am going to be a mom by myself is absurd.  This is not a lifestyle or choice to be envied, admirable as it is to see a parent taking on the brunt of the responsibilites by themselves it is not how this whole gig is supposed to work.

In my rambling I am not sure if any of that made sense but it is just what is in my head at the moment and I needed to rant.

Ms. Aninston I wish you well in your journey of motherhood... I am certain your levels of stress will be somewhat minimal due to the fact you can and will hire a full time nanny to raise your child.  People and US Weekly will photograph you going to the park and dote on what a wonderful mother you are.....  you will sing a different tune I assure you, not publicly, but you will.

Because Spandex Looks Good on You...

Has life really affected me so much I can't even post a blog???  Where has the time gone?  It has been almost a year since my last post which makes me sad because I love to blog.

Oh well enough of that.  So, what is new?  Well not a whole lot to be honest. Still trying to get through school which seems like a never ending climb up a mountain that continues to become ever steeper. Still, 18 months from Sept and I will, I repeat, I WILL have a bachelors in HR.  I don't even want to say the word Grad School at this point, that is becoming a topic of blasphemy in my life! 

My daughter never ceases to amaze me.  One moment she is adorable, cracking up, dancing, making face, and then next she is lying on the floor screaming her lungs out, kicking, pinching, biting.  This makes for interesting moments at the Nano house and tests the restraints of my patience to the extremes.  If parenthood is good for nothing else it is a test of inner calm in the midst of a terrible two's tantrum.  I am learning to find different outlets for myself to teach and redirect the attention of an almost 2 year old.  She keeps me on my toes and helps me find the joy in the smallest of things.

I recently completed an event that I have been dreaming about since I was a little girl.  I would sit at home and watch Iron Man races and get chills; I never dreamed I would participate in a Triathalon!  Though it wasn't a full fledged Tri it was an amazing experience and I am a better person for checking this item off of my bucket list.  My sister and some great friends were able to participate in this event with me as well and I think we all had feelings of great accomplishment. It was all women, a lot of encouragment, and more spandex than I ever care to see in one place at one time. And yet everyone looked amazing!!! It is hard to see women pushing themselves and cheering others on all the while and look bad doing it.  I can't wait to get a GOOD bike and go for a second one!!!!

Other than that life is constant.....I have no reason not to keep a smile on my face.