For the love of Fall

I always find myself sighing relief at summer's end, not that I don't enjoy the warm and lazy days the summer offers merely I feel fall kind of comes just in time to keep my head on straight. This is why I love being a Kansas and having the opportunity to enjoy all four seasons. I feel that each year as the leaves turn and fall so does the dead weight of the prior year of my life. In a sense like a snake shedding her skin. I was chatting the other day with a friend and realized that I am somewhat of a worthless writer without some heartache in my life. I think that I need to shake that from my writer psych because I am not up for sob poems anytime in the near or far future.
I would like to say I have been doing a little soul searching lately, but to be quite honest I am always soul searching, it has become a continuous wash, rinse, and repeat cycle with me. I think as humans who are in constant states of change in one way or another we never really settle, or at least I would like to think this is true. And I don't mean in a "sow your oats" way, because I truly believe two people can connect and remain faithful to each other for their lifetime, I just mean that people need new things in their life. Don't let your imagination and dreams sink to the bottom of your snowglobe.
I feel no need to settle and I must admit regretfully there are days I feel I have settled. I have a fierce love of music and dance and yet I have pushed that out of my life for the sake of a career. I have not, however given up my dream of pursuing in some shape or form a life in the arts, so I guess that gives me something to look forward to after school is under my belt. This may sound selfish but I don't want to be one of those parents that gets lost in their childrens lives. I want to do things I enjoy, have a hobby and extra curricular activities. I see all to frequently adults who have become cab drivers for their children and never stop to take a breathe and have a life of their own.
Maybe this is why Disney movies never show life after marriage and kids.....

In conclusion to my ramble I am excited for what the blowing leaves will bring into my life and will try to be accepting of turning colors...